Heartache
I broke up with Rocky today. I cannot handle the fact that we’re both passive. There are certain obligations when you enter into a relationship. Certain things you should know that you should do. If I make the effort to see you, clear my schedule, and you say yes, you’ll be available, and when the time comes, I neither see nor hear where you are. It’s been bothering me, nagging at the back of my mind, actually no, it’s been downright annoying the hell out of me everyday.
I had to freaking pay 200 dollars for downloading the iPhone iBlacklist application, so I could freaking block his calls/texts. Except that they’re not exactly blocked either, I get to read the filtered messages. He’s guilt tripping me. He sent messages asking why this is happening. Whether he did something wrong. And thanked me for hurting him. THANKED ME.
I’ve had enough. How many times have I seen John because Rocky doesn’t show? How many times has John had to comfort me? How many times do I have to run to John because Rocky doesnt call or text to tell me he can’t make it, or he’s too busy. What has Rocky reduced me to? To an insecure, unhappy, over bearing bitch.
Sad,
Summer
