Snowflakes

Russian French Spy

So for a while there’s been this Russian French guy that drops by now and then to exchange currencies. From dollars to nam dollars. And I wondered for a while why he doesn’t speak to me, only to find out later that he doesn’t speak English at all.

So yesterday, when I bumped into him in the street, I said hi with a hug, and I think he was really taken aback, it was SUCH an awkward hug, but he tried speaking to me with this thick accent, sexy. 

Happy Day~

He sents me an email

The caption of the email says: Handsome?

Inside were three attachments of his wedding shoot, his personal pictures, not the ones with his wife. What’s he implying? Why the fuck is he sending me this?

My heart bleeds

Twitch

So my left eye has been twitching this evening, past 6 this evening. 

Mom says that left eye twitch is a bad omen.

Then around 7ish, my right eye twitched too!!!!

ugh :(

Bunch of Asians

So I recently started working at Zooty, fell sick really fast. Been running the bathroom like crazy all week. I don’t even eat anymore, all I do is eat a tablespoon of yogurt when I’m starving till the point of ‘I-cant-take-it-anymore’. Hell-ish days. 

Anywho, so since working in Zooty, there’s always Asians dropping in now and then to go downstairs to greet mom. So a bunch of 3 came in today, one of them I recognized because mom and I visited him and his wife once (there by international), and then the two other guys I didn’t recognize. I came home around 3ish cos my running stomach was not helping and I felt baaaaad, couldn’t breathe type of bad. Was lying in bed when Mom calls telling me that the cellphone guy’s wife will call me about the investment stuff. I was like, cul. So around 3:50ish I get a call from the guy, he asked me about the investments, unit trusts that I was doing, and I explained a bit, he then said, well, this isn’t a matter we can discuss and understand via a call, why don’t you join me and my friends at a braai this evening? So I said sure.

Now, during this time, I have no idea which guy called me. And at 6 I waited for him as agreed upon infront of Hi-Fi, he came and texted telling me he was there, and I got out of my car, he was driving a Volvo with the number plate “LION”, which made me inwardly LOL pretty bad. Anyways, nice young man I must say, was inwardly thinking, dayyyyemn, the guy’s young and taken already~ sigh* He lives just opposite Maerua, that side of Jan Joker Heights apartment, I got there, parked at number 9 (I reversed, tehehehe), and he walked me to his appartment. Got in, there were 3 other ladies and a bunch of guys, 1 lady I recognized, and 2 other guys I recognized too… they all used to hang with JiaFan as well…. I was like “= = oh mannnn”~ so as much as it’s an awkward situation, I tried my best to fit in. And the amount of ALCOHOL in that place is astounding!!! So I was checking the guy’s ring finger, and there was no ring, and I was like…NOOOOO is that possible!? He even had a bling on his left ear :)) and a taste in fashion too.

I was seated inbetween Lin-Lin and the other lady that knew JiaFan, we were making small talk, asked her if she saw JiaFan recently, she told me yes, asked about William’s gf, asked about Kevin, smallll talk, and I told them about my Investments, offers, requirements, etc. And the good looking guy (the one that led the way from Hi-Fi, the one who’s apartment I’m currently in, the one where I thought he was married, the one with a sense of fashion, yip, THAT ONE) was staring at me, making conversation, trying to be friendly. Asked me several times whether I’d want wine, or to eat, or anything as a matter of fact. But I declined all their offers (runny stomach and stuff)…

7pm came along and I had to leave, it was pouring outside, he walked me out, and then told me to wait, he went back in to get an umbrella, then we got to the parking and he invited me to go clubbing with him, and I told him how I would of loved to join except that my mom was in the country, so I can’t go out. 

Oh and when I tried returning the umbrella to him, he refused, I told him I had one in my car that is was unnecessary, but he insisted. I wonder if there’s some symbolic meaning towards giving someone an umbrella?

I drove home, and got home starved and tired. Was getting ready to jump into the shower when he texts and asks

“你到家了嗎?”

我: “到了,今晚謝謝你們的招待

他: 是我沒招待好, 不然你也不會那麼早走. 可能是不適應我們的圈子吧.

我: 是真的答應媽媽7點左右回家. 今晚祝你們玩的愉快

他: 呵呵 油膩才會快樂,開玩笑. 給天請你吃飯.

omg… this is like 100x better than Paul!!! lol, I’m ecstatic right now :))

Dreams

So… I seem to be making a lot of appearances in men’s dreams~

First I appeared in Gary’s dream, and this is what he said:

8th March 2011

“Well I was riding mountain bike in the forest next to a lake! U just popped up from out of nowhere. U invited me to ur house, which was next to a lake! Next thing we where making out on ur bed, and rolling around. Then ur mom busted (not having a clue how she looks). Im running outa ur house with the sheets around me! Then is just ended up with us being in the forest again, u setting a cobra after my ass! Weirdest dream I have had in a long time.”

And I made an appearance in Nico’s dream:

20th March 2011

“I ws over run with zombies. I wake up on the beach and I heard a scream. Thn sum hw im in a tower and ur ther and i need to save u frm the zombies. So i had a special glove that gave me superpowers. I could use telekinesis. Cut up a load of zombies. Saved u and yeah…enuf said :-P”

And then in Eathon’s explicit dream:

And recently in Vladimir’s dream:

22nd April 2011

He dreamt that he was kissing me~

See? All sexual related dreams. Makes me happy ;) that I star in other people’s dreams :)

Soul Mate

Two words capable of invoking the wildest of fantasies.

As much as I’m against the concept of soulmates. I can’t wait for mine. When I pass my 28th birthday (lunar year count), I’ll be ready to marry him. I’ll be ready to share my life with him.

I wonder what he’s going to be like. Maybe a Leo or Virgo or Capricorn as well? :) I’m already excited about meeting him in the near future. Oooh, maybe a Taurus? :)) 

For now, I’ll direct my energy into my work, so I can work towards a better future~*

Mild Depression

I went to my doctor today, and he diagnosed me with mild depression. I’m so miserable. Over what? Nothing. Over my idiotic mistakes, my shame, my embarrassment, my mistakes, my choices. And I’m stressing myself over all of these. Going to see a psychiatrist sometime at the beginning of May, do some tests, have an analysis. 

God, I want to run away. Far away. Just…be away from here. This mess. This horrible place.

Confirmed

Whatever hopes, and wishes I still harbored for Rocky completely diminished when I heard what his sister had to finally say about him. He’s so sick. SICK. I think he needs to be locked in an asylum and be studied on! He has some sort of disorder. I have nothing more to say about him. Wait, I could literally write a book about him, his constant change of personality, his techniques, tactics he uses, and much more. I wonder whether the book will sell or better yet, they’ll just read the cover, and burn it. I’d be more than happy to watch them do so. His life is an utter mess….

Normal, Irritation, Depression

I wake up in the mornings, feeling like nothing could ever go wrong,  and afternoon comes, I’m mildly irritated… and late afternoon I’m majorly irritated, by nightfall, I reach depression. I shed tears of sorrow. I remember how much I miss Doraemon, I think of how great it’ll feel again to go hand in hand, to travel together, to be happy together again…. I miss him… I miss having someone. I miss sharing everything with someone… His fiancé will arrive this Sunday, it’ll be final. I’ve caused him pain beyond any measure, and yet, he’s still willing to do anything for me… Will I ever find someone as loving, as tolerating, as tender as he is. Will I ever deserve such graciousness from anyone? 

Summer Fall

My heart thumps laborously

Heavy weight upon me

Sorrow seeps through

I’ve chosen pain and suffering

Summer Fall.